Depression and creativity

Do you consider yourself to be lazy? Inadequate? Worthless? Pathetic?
Congratulations! You probably are!

Why? Clearly, you are reading this, which means:
YOU ARE NOT BEING PRODUCTIVE
YOU ARE NOT CREATING

Get off your ass and create.
Create create create
Create imaginary problems and imaginary solutions
Create a fictional story in the hopes of getting in touch with yourself.

Hope. Keep holding onto hope. Shush, let me tell you a secret.
HOPE DOSEN’T EXIST, It's ONLY A CONSTRUCT TO KEEP YOU GOING AND STOP THINKING.
Let a non-existent future tantalize you and haunt you.
Or else people will go crazy. Nobody wants that.

Do you? Do you want to watch your loved ones suffer?
If you suffer, they suffer.
NEVER GIVE UP.
so keep this fact deep within you, even though you probably knew it already
and don’t do anything about it.

What, are you crying?
If you can’t express it,
CLEARLY IT Doesn't EXIST.
Get over yourself.

JUST DO IT.
DON’T THINK, thinking is for losers.
LIKE everything you see just because you see the EFFORT that’s put into it.
COME ON, say it with mE.

EFFORT= BEAUTY
I Can't HEAR YOU
EFFORT=BEAUTY
BEAUTY IS EFFORT.

HARDWORK IS EVERYTHING.
don’t you see what your parents have done for you?

A HARDWORKING middle-class family.
A CARING mother.
A DUTIFUL FATHER.
Oh, my! What pride! Wear that like a badge of honour.

But don’t see your family wearing out,
torn to shreds
but they must stay silent
or else weeds will grow out of their thick skulls
from their genitals
from their eyes down into their oesophagus

Their genitals have something to say now,
A mind of its own

Let the primordial urges dial in to keep everyone alive
don’t suppress your desires
Isn’t that what you always wanted.

But You DON’T want all of this, it’s bad bad bad bad
brutal and disgusting

SO

BRAND YOURSELF. SELL YOURSELF
TO SELF-EXPLOITATION
aHHaah the sweet smell of dread and tears,
Mixed in with a bit of bodily odours
yes yes the world approves of it now.

NOW
whaT you thought we were done here?
LIKE EVERYTHING THAT YOU SEE.
WRITE AN ANALYSIS ON EVERYTHING YOU WATCH
BE AGREEABLE, I HAVE GIVEN YOU EVERYTHING
I have given you the gift of life.
Be grateful, you piece of-.
...
Or else I’ll slit your throat.

Uh OH, is that
is that
A NEW NOTIFICATION FROM LinkedIn
OH my my god!!!!!
A job opportunity at APPLE
maN you can change the world.

OH, IT’S INSTAGRAM NOW MY SWEET FRIEND
COME TO ME,
MMMMHMMM you taste wonderful;

OH, that guy looks pretty cute oh man I’m such a bad friend I haven’t replied to her messages till now I suck ungrateful bastard wow that sketch was amazing!
IT WAS BRILLIANT

I must be brilliant
why am I not brilliant
it’s time to show HOW BRILLIANT I AM
for that I MUST FIGHT AGAINST MYSELF
I AM A WARRIOR
I LOVE THE STENCH OF BLOOD AND VIOLENCE.
I MUST WORK UNTIL I Can't BLEED Any more.
Reach ENLIGHTENMENT.

Oh, I forgot.
There is no blood pumping through me any more.
I am no more.
A pity, I hope others will follow
because I don’t want to be here all alone.